Reese Barcelon
- A man named Haron Ar-Rashid S. Dima posted a letter to his ‘almost girlfriend’ before greeting her a happy birthday.
- He recalled their wonderful memories together and how they suddenly fell back down.
One of the most heartbreaking things on the internet is when someone posts a goodbye letter to their partners before leaving all their memories behind. It makes the netizens believe that the common saying ‘Walang Forever’ might be true. But then again, it is truly painful when two people didn’t even get the chance to enter into a relationship – or what we call, “Almost.”
Most of the time, it is the women who usually do things like this as men prefer to keep their sadness to themselves. However, a male netizens decided to bring it on to social media to show the woman that he really did love her and that it would be hard to forget their relationship.
Haron Ar-Rashid S. Dima wrote a letter to his first and last love in college, Kathy, and greeted her a happy birthday while he is on it.
Prepare some tissues and read his tear-jerking letter below:
“To my first and last love in college,
Let’s start in the beginning of something we thought would never end — let’s start with the hopes of you and I, and the dreams of going far and beyond.
I met you in a garden filled with people. I was tired, and I knew you were too. For a reason, you never seem to look like it, or I was just blind to see no imperfections. You were just there- with your beautiful eyes, your fair skin, shoulder-length hair, and oh so perfect smile. You got me thinking head over heels with the mere sight of you. You caught me off guard. Tired and sleepy, I couldn’t let any moment pass without stealing quick glances of you.
You spoke your mind. You tell jokes. You tell stories of both happiness and sorrow. You express yourself in ways I didn’t expect. You stand tall, and still be grounded. You are what you are: everything and more for a simple guy like myself.
How can a human being contain so much beauty and still be as outgoing and outspoken?”
First, Dima mentioned all the reasons why he fell for this amazing woman named Kathy. He shared how his world went slow motion, just like in the movies.
“We met on the school grounds as friends of friends. I knew your name because you kept on repeating it during election campaigns. It caught me yet another time. I was quite. I was shy. I was the boy who listened and stared at you from the corner of the quadrangle, wishing he can introduce himself to you.
We were introduced. We went out in groups. I didn’t bother where, how, or until when. You were there and that’s what mattered to me.
Finally, we talked and talked. Small talks led to walking you home, and knowing a thing or two about how your dad was away for a living, and how your mom was at home for the business. I got to know you open heart. I opened myself up, too. We were both forbidden to eat pork, so we got along quite very well.
I fell for you and how we sat on the streets of the building where you lived. I complained about slight drops of rain, and you would always correct me they were from the AC units. I fell for the cats and rats we would both laugh at while sitting under the stars. I fell for everything that’s true, genuine, and only us knew.
I thought we were something.
You’re beautiful, smart, and funny. Any guy would fall for you as much as I did.”
Moreover, he also shared all the beautiful traits Kathy possessed – the reasons why Dima fell for her, really hard.
“Time came and more guys came into the picture. You “fell” for one. I thought I lost a game we didn’t even play. I was hurt, but I liked you. I’d be there for you, even if it’s not me who was with you.
Heartbroken but happy for you, that was what I was.
I fell in love. You did, too. You had a world of your own, I had mine. We crossed paths to give small talks and tight hugs. I remember always making excuses for you to stay a little longer than usual. But hey, we have both our own paths to take, so we went separate ways.
I heard you cried for me. It broke my heart to know you loved me, but we didn’t make it through. We spend times together, but we weren’t anything. I was there for you, and you were there for me. That was what we were. Two people on each other’s backs, always willing to go extra miles for one another.
We were both happy, contented, and willing to take risks, but it didn’t go the way we wanted it to go.
I don’t know what happened to us. I don’t know how we ended up where we are right now. I don’t know what comes next. All I know is we both believe there’s always a reason for everything.
One morning, I called you with a broken heart and a broken faith. You cried with me before the morning even dawns. You shared my tears, my pain, my ugliness, and my despair. You were there.”
However, Dima revealed that they weren’t given the chance to enter into a relationship. Just like in the song Through the Fire, “We’re through before we start.”
“I am sorry. I am sorry for always being the one who never sees how you felt. I was blinded by the love I thought I am giving you. I am sorry for not being there when you needed me most. I am sorry for letting another person take over my place. I am sorry for not choosing you at times I know you wished I’d choose you.
Thank you for everything that you were. Thank you for the lessons, the food, the time, and the whole duration of semesters blessed with you and your ways of brighting up my life. Thank you for the lessons, the care, and the constant companionship on the streets and in coffee shops. Thank you for your love.
We are now nearing the end. I don’t know where my feet will take me. I don’t know where yours will take you. We have shared so much moments and it’s sad they will all be memories of the woman I met and let go in college.
I wish you nothing but success because that’s what you deserve. You deserve nothing less. You are an independent, happy, smart, and beautiful young woman willing to take over the world.
Don’t get me wrong, I still get jealous when I see you holding hands with him, but I am happy. I have my plans, you have yours. Should we cross paths in the future, it will still be the same. The same tight hug, and the meaningful kiss on the cheek of a young man who once saw his future with the woman he laid eyes on a garden filled with people.
My reality is different from yours and the rest of the world. I don’t know what plans there are for us. Maybe we are just a living testimony that no matter how much love we think we can give to a person, it will not work unless we make it work.
I still steal quick glances from you, but it’s different now. It’s a glance of pride, and happy wishes to whatever it is that you are working for in life.
I will always be here- believing that the streets, little rains, and big rodents are witnesses of how we both shared all the love we reserved for each other.
You will always be in my heart but I will put an end to the hopes of you and I, and the dreams of going far and beyond. I wish you happiness and good life with whoever it is you are happy with. Your happiness is mine.
Good bye, Kathy. Happy Birthday!
May your life be as happy as you always are.
You are my best memory in college.”
Indeed, it was a painful letter to read, especially if you’re one of the few who could relate to what they had experienced. It might have been the right love, but it was at the wrong time.
Netizens who had read the post were able to relate, while the others simply felt the pain Dima was going through.
Although it was a heartbreaking experience, both of them were able to somewhat get over it and be happy for each other even when they don’t have each other anymore. But who knows? Destiny is a playful thing, and it might lead them back to each other in the right time.
Were you sad for him too? What would you have done if you were in Dima’s shoes?
