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- YouTube beauty vlogger Michelle Fox told the story of her childhood and hardships prior to creating content for her channel.
- She uploaded a tell-all video explaining why and how she entered her previous job as an adult film star.
Michelle Fox has been a beauty vlogger for almost a year now and has more than 213,000 subscribers.
As her following is growing, she decided to release a tell-all video, narrating all her hardships and experiences in the past. She said that people have ‘parts of their past’ that they never want to look back.
“I know a lot of you already know about my past. I was afraid to be honest kasi alam kong maraming mga bashers. Maraming nangbubully.
“I want to be happy but I won’t be able to be that person if I will let my past hunt me. I’m doing this video to tell anyone na no matter kung ano ka man before or kung ano ka ngayon, you can still be the person who you want to be. Wag nating hayaan ang mga tao to define us. That’s our responsibility, hindi sa kanila.”
She said that her viewers still don’t know why she entered the adult film industry.
“You don’t know the story kung bakit ko pinasok yung ganong klaseng trabaho. Nakikita niyo ko ngayon as a beauty vlogger pero hindi niyo alam kung ano mga pinag-daanan ko. Hindi ako makakapayag na dahil lang sa mga negative people, mga bullies, bashers, eh titigil na ko sa pag-abot sa king mga pangarap.”
The vlogger shared about her childhood, she dreamed of becoming a woman. But things didn’t go as smooth as she got beaten up when her brother caught her wearing women’s clothes.
“Hindi ako nakatapos ng aking pag-aaral dahil nga sa hirap ng buhay. Bata palang ako, pangarap ko na talagang maging isang ganap na babae. Iniimagine ko yung sarili ko yung sexy, long hair, matangkad, pero hindi naman ako nabiyayaan ng height.”
She moved to Calbayog City, Samar after a while and since she lacked in cash, she was forced to sleep in the park for a week and ate nothing but balot and chicharon the following week.
“May nakilala ako dung magbabalot. Tapos nakiusap ako sa kanya sabi ko ‘tutulungan kita mag benta bigyan mo lang ako ng pang-kain’.”
After three days of looking for a job, she found one at a place owned by a Chinese man, however, a month passed and her employer refused to give her salary. That’s when she asked help from her former schoolmate named Christopher.
“Tapos ayon pinasok niya ako dun sa beerhouse. Ang una kong trabaho, floor manager. Nagma-mop ng floor. Pero go. Okay lang siyempre… Tapos na-promote. Taga-punch naman ako ng mga kanta sa videoke… Tapos na-promote. Ako na yung nagtatanong ng mga customer kung gusto nila mag table ng babae.”
After that, Michelle moved to Manila and worked at her aunt’s store, but as she did not receive any salary she took another job in a factory.
She lived with her sister in Parañaque and met a certain Kathy who advised on how to date foreigners. She first dated an Indian, followed by a European, who gave her a monthly allowance and volunteered to sponsor her breast implants.
They dated for three years before she met the American that offered her a job as an adult star.
“Pumumunta kami sa Thailand para mag shoot. Dun ako nakapag-ipon ng pera. Napapadalahan ko buwan buwan yung magulang ko. Nakapag-pundar ako para sa sarili ko.
“Isang gabi nagdasal ako sabi ko ‘Lord, hindi na ito yung dating ako. Lord, ilayo mo naman ako sa pag-huhubad’.”
Michelle got into a relationship with a guy that helped her SRS (sex reassignment surgery) and promised her that he will distance her from her previous job.
Back at the Philippines, she became a real estate broker and got interested in photography. Her boyfriend then bought her a camera with light equipment.
On the other hand, her visa to go to the US got denied and her boyfriend got blacklisted as he still has an ongoing case in America. When she got stressed over the situation, she went back to the province and spent time with her parents.
After she went back to Manila, Michelle started fiddling with the camera and that’s when she began making videos and make-up tutorials.
In the last part of her video, she got emotional as she expressed her thankfulness to all her viewers and the OFWs that often send her encouraging words.
“At least natapos ko tong video na to. Akala ko kanina hindi ko magagawa, nag dasal pa ko kanina. So ngayong merong mga natutuwa, merong mga magagalit pero naiindtindihan ko yun.”
