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- Star Hunt contestant shared her coming out story.
- She also admitted to joining pageants despite her sexuality.
Star Hunt is ABS-CBN’s latest program to find their next big star!
As there are thousands of aspiring artists auditioning, there are also thousands of stories waiting to be told. One of which is Nicx Devora’s journey to finding out who she really is.
She said that ever since she was a kid, she has felt different from all the kids around her as she had other interests. She also got confused as she developed crushes for her female teachers.
“Bata plang po ako, parang weird na po yung nararamdaman ko sa sarili ko. It’s like ‘babae ako pero bat ganito? Bat parang yung mga nagiging crush ko yung mga teacher kong babae. Ayoko nung mga nilalaro nilang barbie barbie, bahay-bahayan. Ayoko ng ganon, gusto ko yung bike, yung baril barilan.”
And when Nicx entered high school the situation didn’t change because even though her friends were girls, she preferred playing basketball with the guys.
“Nung high school ako, syempre mga barkada ko mga babae. Sila nagcu-cutix and everything. Ako yung dala-dala ko gitara, gusto ko dun sa mga kaklase kong nagba-basketball.”
She admitted that she did try being a woman because she thought that it was only a phase, however, when a guy tried courting her, she admitted that she’s not into dudes.
“Triny ko naman. Triny ko talagang maging babae. Kala ko sabi ko baka stage lang to ng confusion. Baka part lang to ng puberty ko. Pero wala talaga. Walang magic.
“Nung high school ako, may nang ligaw sakin. Sinabi ko lang “Di tayo talo.””
Nicx also said that she’s lucky to have such understanding parents.
“Nung sinabi ko na kay mommy, tsaka kay daddy, “sana kahit ganito ako, hindi mag iba yung pag-tingin niyo sakin.” Tapos luckily sinabi naman nila na “Maging sino ka man, tatanggapin kita kasi anak kita.” Yun parang na-touch ako dun. Grabe sobrang swerte ko sa kanila.”
Although she’s a lesbian, she’s not afraid to try things that are considered “girly”, like joining beauty pageants.
“Nung 2nd year college po ako, dun po ako nag simulang sumali ng mga pageants sa school. Nung una, ayaw ko talaga ng mga ganon. Pero inencourage talaga ako ng mga teachers ko, ng mga classmates ko. Parang napag isipan ko sige nga baka makakatulong to sakin. Nilista na yung pangalan ko as official candidate dun. Pinakita ko sa kanila na I strive hard. Para lang hindi sila mapahiya sa pag-pilit sakin, sa pag encourage sakin.”
So how did she prepare? “Kaya yun nagpaturo ako sa mga bakla kong kaklase. Mga kaibigan.”
Nicx only thinks about one thing whenever she’s on-stage, to not embarrass herself.
“Sa totoo lang po everytime na nasa stage ako, isa lang po, pinagdadasal ko lang na “Lord, kahit di ako manalo dito, basta hindi lang po ako matumba, matapilok, di lang po ako mapahiya sa harap ng maraming tao, okay ako dun.””
She has joined four pageants so far.
